The closer it gets to Christmas, the worse I seem to feel. I miss you so much my beautiful boy! They say, that when you lose a child at such a young age your arms ache to hold them, and I can say that my arms literally ache every day. I want to hold you, i want you to be here with us, opening your christmas gifts, i want to see the wonderful smile on your face as you get all excited about christmas day. But I know that can not be and that hurts me so. We are always thinking of you my baby, and you are missed terribly. I love you and you are in my heart always.